Long post is long but explains much....probably
Read at your own peril *poor use of gifs ahead*, or if you're bored
Art Life
So for the past several months (since, like, January probably) I've been on a hiatus of sorts. Mostly to focus on school since I was having difficulty in my ornithology and life drawing courses. I was also on that hiatus because I've been sort of down and out about my art and just general things. Even now, away from *most* of the stress of school I'm still not in a very artsy mood, even though I've seen a significant improvement in my anatomy and the like...
When I got out of school and back on to dA, I sort of felt like dA was really childish and that I really wanted to focus more on my IRL painting and work on some sculpting ideas I've had in my head since the beginning of last fall. Now, I'm just in some kind of limbo. I've been drawing on and off on PS and haven't really touched my canvases, nor have I uploaded my school work because I feel like the photos I took were crap quality.
At this point, I'm not sure what I'm going to do... I feel iffy about dA, have realized that the internet isn't the best thing for my mood (of just boredom and lethargy and all around unhappiness(and that I really need to go outside, see the sun, and maybe play some tennis or practice my archery)).
I want to paint some things I've had in my head for years now but am now unsure if acrylic is the right medium for them*.
My hiatus will probably stay and I probably won't renew my PM as a sort of motivation for me to use dA more. I may not even post some of my school pieces, but I can try.
*Now that I think about it, I could paint them in acrylic now as practice and once I take my painting classes and understand different mediums more, I could go back and make new versions and touch up on things I don't like in the acrylic version.
IRL
As I mentioned above, I'm just in a crappy mood and don't feel like I'm doing anything and, while I may have the ideas floating around in my head, I just lack any and all motivation for anything *oldish* I've been doing.
I'm just...
Even though I have so much I could do...
So while I haven't completely wasted my summer, I haven't exactly been productive.
I finally got around to watching the Harry Potter movies after reading the books years and years ago (and think I'm 90% Ravenclaw (because of personality and goals and such) and 10% Hufflepuff (because everyone I know seems to be Hufflepuffs
and their house just seems so calm)), but haven't worked on any of my own stories. I've finally figured out how to knit and was working on a stockinette Ravenclaw scarf, but haven't even taken out my paints or clay.
I've practiced my violin, a little, but haven't gotten around to practicing my French or Gaelic /getshatefromprofessorsforever.
I've signed up for and gone through orientation and drug tests for volunteering at a local hospital (and hopefully start next week), but I haven't even touched my MCAT practice questions or been able to even get a job interview for college money. I started exercising regularly and even kept it up for a week, but then that just trailed off I have no idea what to do now since krav maga, kick boxing, and horseback riding lessons are expensive and just about everything else bores me XD
I've also been trying to look for more ways to get out of my house and meet new people, but Vegas has the crappiest parks (and Mt. Charleston is a 2 hr drive and the best park (a sort of marshland area) is too far for my car since it has a tendency to break down) and from everything I've been looking at, it seems that unless you are 21 or older and can go to clubs (that *aren't* the teen ones) you're s.o.l. when it comes to meeting people....*
TL;DR Overall, I just feel like I've done nothing and am going nowhere. The only bright spot seems to be volunteering at a hospital with my wonderful NICU babies who remind me why I want to be a surgeon in the first place
Maybe I'm just trying to accomplish too much at once and need to realize that while we, as humans, tend to overestimate what we can do in a day, we underestimate what we can do in a lifetime. and hope for the best that what I do now can get me into Cambridge's medical school and out of this miserable desert....
*if anyone has any ideas on what I can do to meet people who are, say, 23-ish and up, please let me know
